Lately, I have not felt like writing at all. My book still has only 30 pages. I feel I have come to a stumbling block and may have to write just to get to the points I know I am ready to write and rewrite later. The one thing that has been a concern to me of late is the power within numbers. Specifically, regarding the numbers 1111, 2222 and 3333. If I recorded the amount times, I have seen these numbers consistently in the past week, you would not believe me. I check the time on my phone, I see the numbers. I pause a YouTube video; I see the numbers. I check the mileage on my car, I see the numbers. Licence Reg, I see the numbers. Football match I check the clock and see the numbers. Now either something is trying to communicate with me, or I am making it seem that way. I think you get the point.
Now, I believe in a universal power, I believe that everything and everyone are connected within the realm of the known universe. My question to myself was why was this happening so often to me? It was true that I had lost my way a little lately, I had to remember where I was a few years ago. I was genuinely enjoying life, going places, seeing people and was in better shape back then. I had long hair, had a good job, just gotten out of a toxic relationship and was free. Everything seemed to be coming up rosy for me. The universe was reacting to my positive outlook on life. Then something happened. A girl that I knew from my university days, messaged me out of the blue. She was still in a relationship herself that was toxic, and I helped her find a way out of that. I guess I did not think it through properly. The universe was acting, and I responded. We picked up right where we left off from university it seemed. I was smitten to say the least, the thing I did not realise is I was slowly losing myself. I was always there for her, and that was very demanding of me. So much so that I lost myself. My job became laborious, my fitness out of the window, my friends pushed to the backline. This was not me at all. Yet I was happy, making her happy. The realisation of my ways came quite suddenly when I lost my job. I was not hitting the sales targets, so understandably that it came to an end. I was offered another job in Matlock. I decided to pass and see what was waiting for me out there and see where the universe would take me next.
Most people would think I was crazy to do such a thing. I did not see any harm in this. I have no dependent people relying on me and had saved some money that I was planning for a holiday with me and Kirsty. I of course told her about it, and as she had quit her job days earlier, I asked her how she would feel if we instead went on a road trip. Maybe we would find ourselves out there together. I was again trusting in the universe. It was a wonderful adventure we had planned to go up the East coast of England through to the South boarder of Scotland and follow it up west, before we eventually came down and then back to the west coast of England and through to Wales, the south of England and back home. We had it all planned and we brought the many things we would need for the adventure. I kitted out the boot of my vehicle to make a sleeping quarters and reliable storage unit. It was a good adventure, and then we reached Wales. We had used the tent at a camping ground the previous night, I woke up and she was already ready to go. She told me then, that she wanted to go back home. I of course obliged and asked her what was wrong. She just wanted to go home. It was a quiet ride back, we had one last meal from a fat food joint and then I found myself at her home. I helped her with her stuff, and we hugged. The last thing she ever said to me from her mouth was: “I’m not mad, I’m just disappointed”. That stung bitterly, I mean I know I am not perfect; I never delude myself of that, but what the fuck? I got in my car and went. I was annoyed, I really wanted to see Wales again, it is beautiful. So, I got back home, dismantled the makeshift bed and storage, unpacked my things, then went for a bath. As I came out of the bath, I had messages from her. She was pissed I did not message her, she decided it was not working out for her and ended it through a text message. She wrote: ‘I told you, as soon as I wasn’t happy, you would lose me’. I tried ringing her but to no avail. This was the week before my 30th birthday. Then it hit me like a sack of ice. In the last month, I had lost my job, my girlfriend and pretty much all my money. (That trip was expensive, seriously should have picked a holiday abroad).
I cannot even remember what happened in the weeks that followed. I was pissed off though, but man was I tired. It had been a while since I did not have someone wanting my attention every single moment of the day, and that was good to have that back again. After my birthday came and went, she messaged me again. I never replied. Then I went to the gig we had planned to go to together (She had bought the tickets as a present) I went with someone else. The next day I get another message ‘Who did you go to the gig with’? I never replied. That is the last message she ever sent me. I think it fits well to the monument of our relationship. She was only ever interested in what I could do for her. I did love her though, I guess that is why it was such a hard pill to swallow. I guess I needed to write this in order to understand the truth. Especially with the Covid situation as it is now, I guess my mind has been wandering back there lately. With this understanding of what had been playing on my mind of late, I wonder if that had something to do with the numbers I have been seeing regularly.
I research into it. The first thing that pops up ‘Angel Number’. What is this? Some more mystic Meg bullshit? I think to myself. I read on:
1111: Seeing angel number 1111 should also be your motivation to eliminate all negative thoughts from your mind.
Also, you should eliminate all other negative things from your life and live happily. If you are thinking in a positive way, then you will be able to attract positive energy into your life. But, if you think negatively, then negative things will happen to you and your angels are trying to tell you that through angel number 1111.
If you keep seeing angel number 1111 everywhere, it means that miracles are possible and something great will happen to you. If you think that your life has no sense and if you are going through a difficult period right now, then we can tell you that angel number 1111 will change your life completely.
2222: We have already said that angel number 2222 is a symbol of calmness and peace. When this number comes into your life, you will become calm and you will change your way of thinking and perceiving things. You will become a more positive person and you will realize that life is something beautiful.
You just need to learn how to live it and how to enjoy in little things that you have all around you. If you recognize angel number 2222 and if you accept the message from your angels, you will learn how to think in a positive way and how to live better. Your angels will help you get rid of all negative things from your life and they will give you their support.
3333: If angel number 3333 has appeared in your life more than once, it is possible that your angels are trying to catch your attention this way. They want to tell you that your future will be bright and full of success.
You need to accept the message that has been sent to you and to try to interpret it more thoroughly.
We have already told you what secret meanings may be hidden behind angel number 3333, so it will not be hard for you to realize what it means when you see this number somewhere.
First of all you should know that the number that your angels have sent to you will give you motivation and encouragement to keep working hard. You need to accept all your responsibilities and obligations and to do the things more seriously.
All these have been directly cited from: https://angelnumber.org
As much as I hate to admit it, these ‘angel numbers’ really hit me in a place I had not respected for a while, my soul. I am still a very spiritual person, and this resonates with me. The universe was reaching out again, but my trust has wavered. I fear, that by trusting the universe again I open myself up for my pain and misery, but wow that scenery was breath-taking, maybe it is time to trust the universe again, or maybe I should have never stopped.
Do you believe in universal influence?
Have you ever seen these numbers appear frequently?
Are we all just part of a bigger plan?
Peace and love as always!